Secrets

I was asked to post ten things about myself that I've never told anyone. Not really sure that I should. I rather like having secrets. But...

1. I'm a habitual weigher. I weigh myself at least 4 times a day.

2. While growing up, despite being "popular," I always felt extremely lonely.

3. I tell everyone that I never wonder who my biological parents are. The truth is...I do.

4. Sometimes I tell myself that my brother didn't really drown. That instead he's living somewhere far away and one day he'll come back home.

5. The first time I heard the word fuck spoken was from my very proper, conservative, Bible-thumping Grandmother's mouth when she was cursing my loving Grandfather for not taking the garbage out. She didn't know I was listening.

6. I've only been stoned three times. But I continually long for the feeling of it. I suppose it's escape that I crave.

7. In college, a good friend and I would sneak out and do some heavy-duty making out at the drive-in that showed skin flicks late at night. We were both seeing other people at the time. They never found out.

8. I stopped nursing my infant child not because my milk wouldn't come in, but because his sucking aroused me to the point of orgasm and I felt too ashamed about it.

9. Not a single day goes by that I don't think about tossing my whole career away and starting over in another field.

10. I still love him.