Saturday, June 21, 2008

Raise the Rafters in Living Color

Howdy! Been busy and absent lately. But I'm back.

I've had something strange happen to me, and I don't quite know what to make of it.

I've started dreaming again.

For the last 15-20 years, I rarely, truly rarely, remember my dreams, or even have the feeling that I have dreamed. I'm not sure why I stopped dreaming so many years ago, but I did. And on those rare occasions when I did wake up feeing like I had dreamed, I never remembered anybody or anything in them!.


Well, since mid-May, I awake almost every morning and either remember parts of my dreams, or at least feel certain that I did dream. But, I still do not dream of anyone I know. My dreams are filled with strangers. In my dream I know them and they know me, but as an onlooker for my dreams, I have no clue who these people are.


But, at least I'm dreaming!

Oh... and apparently I've begun snoring heavily too. I wonder if there is a correlation?

Ah phooey.... who gives a fuck! I'm back in Dreamsville. Whoopeeeee!

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

Getting to Know Me

"Getting to know you, getting to know all about you. Getting to like you. Getting to hope you like me."

--Anna in The King and I

One of the difficulties of building a new friendship is getting to know the idiosyncracies of the other person.

Confession. I'm an odd bird. Reason and logic are my mainstays. But to employ them, I often need solitude.

Today was a rough day. Lots of decisions weighing heavily on my shoulders, new deadlines I just found out about that are only a couple of days away - and I'm not ready for them - woes at home, health concerns, etc. By the end of the day, I was bitchy, snippy, and really tired. When I'm like this, I really don't want to impose my bitchiness, snippiness, and fatigue on anyone.

But I did.

And I'm sorry.

I just needed some time to be alone and think. That's how I handle days like this.

Tomorrow I'll likely be my cheery self again. But for today, I need to go to my cave alone and think.